lesson 2

But godliness with contentment is great gain. For we brought nothing into the world, and we can take nothing out of it. But if we have food and clothing, we will be content with that.

Those who want to get rich fall into temptation and a trap and into many foolish and harmful desires that plunge people into ruin and destruction. For the love of money is a root of all kinds of evil. Some people, eager for money, have wandered from the faith and pierced themselves with many griefs. 

1 Timothy 6:6-10

lesson 1

Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavely Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life? 

And why do you worry about clothes? See how the flowers of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you - you of little faith? So do not worry, saying, “What shall we eat?” or “What shall we drink?” or “What shall we wear?” For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. 

Matthew 6:25-34

sometimes it just becomes so disappointing when people are not who they appear to be privately. or, rather, when people are one way but they try to force themselves to see things another way or feel things another way, and i just feel a kind of itch that i cannot scratch when i find out these things. it’s quite irritating.

i think the worst days aren’t when bad things happen
i think they’re when you spend the entire time doing absolutely nothing and achieving so little that you hardly feel like a human being
and instead you’re a waste of space, a waste of life
and that’s how my day was
mehhh

bug on my computer screen

i pressed it softly but it smeared across my screen

so i had to wipe it away with my blanket before i could think about it too much

i used to be too squeamish about these things

just now i didnt feel too bad

why do things that really should not cause me so much sadness
the light in someone’s smile
the honesty and devotion in someone’s caption
a street lit by the dim street lamps
the love and care in a big hug 

feeling… sad

things i learn watching educational videos on youtube:

“Stress, including the mental stress of uncertainty, is an ingredient in attachment or love and that perhaps even manifestations of hatred (its polar opposite) somehow enhance love.” 

i’m still trying to figure out this photo editing thing so forgive me if you can’t stand the transparent ingenuity of my pictures, i’m trying i really am